June 2010
26 posts
WIW
274.6
I have pretty mixed feelings about this number.
-2.0 is nowhere near the -6.4 from last WIW, so that’s a little disappointing.
On the other hand it is still a loss, so that is good news.
Then again when you look at my past few days: Sun=274.0, Mon=274.6, Tues=274.0, Wed=274.6, it is easy to see why I am frustrated.
On the other hand again, maybe that is what I deserve for weighing...
Confession Time:
(because drawing everyone’s attention to one of the most painful and embarrassing posts from my past isn’t enough for one day…): I have a guilty pleasure and it is called The Bachelorette.
I love everything terrible about the show and even some not so terrible things… namely Chris L. But every time I am ready to sign my heart away to him, Roberto shows up with that...
Living in My Own Body: I hate feeling sorry for... →
onwiththenew:
I hate feeling sorry for myself. But feeling sorry for myself isn’t even the right term for it. I’m hating myself. It is self-hatred. Self-loathing.
I was taught it was selfish. It made me narcissistic. And needy. I shouldn’t share my unhappy feelings with others because it makes them…
First, hello! I really like your blog and I’m sort of new to the whole weight loss blog...
eddoeslife-deactivated20110202 asked: Hey - no pity parties unless you invite others.
Rather than waiting for life to give you something good go out and grab something good. There is plenty good all over the place if you just focus on that. No more sloppy thinking please.
Rather than waiting for life to give you something good go out and grab something good. There is plenty good all over the place if you just focus on that. No more sloppy thinking please.
12:05 pm
I wish something good would happen in my life so I could write a post about it. Does measuring your life in blog posts make you pathetic? I think I already know the answer…
To my non-Canadian followers:
vladislava:
Are you aware that the G20 is happening in Toronto right now? That protesters are being advanced upon by our current police state’s riot cops, beaten with batons, shot at with rubber bullets, unlawfully and unjustifiably arrested, and tear gassed? Denied their civil rights? That one detained deaf protester was refused an ASL interpretor? That police cars have been set on fire,...
5:30 pm
Guess what! Okay, you will never guess so I’ll tell you: I went running yesterday! Outside!
I have never been afraid of the gym, or if I was I conquered that fear so long ago when I started going at 16 that I’ve forgotten. But outside is different. I don’t notice other people at the gym because I am focusing on my own workout and I assume they are doing the same. I do notice...
weightlossismygoal-deactivated2 asked: Hello. Just wanted to say you're so brave for posting pics of yourself. I'm glad I found you're blog. We're about 5lbs apart and I feel you're the inspiration/motivation I've been looking for. Also good luck on your weightloss journey. Love your blog.
9:45 pm
My camp.
Where to even begin?
Those who have never been to camp can never understand. Some have gone to camp and not enjoyed it; those people I can never understand. Then others have been and loved and they think they understand, but they don’t. Because their camp is not my camp.
At my camp, the land is sacred. It contains so much history, so much magic, it is indescribable. I wish I...
theroadtoslimcity asked: Good Morning!
Ive spent some of this morning reading your blog and I would just like to say simply, I genuinely like you. :) I think you're very brave and doing a great job! Keep it up hon!
Ive spent some of this morning reading your blog and I would just like to say simply, I genuinely like you. :) I think you're very brave and doing a great job! Keep it up hon!
9:40 am
Here it is. My first WIW. Are you excited? I am super excited!
So, to recap:
I got the scale on a Wednesday night so I am not counting what I weighed then (286.2). I am going to go by Thursday morning last week (283.0). And this morning was……drumroll please…….276.6!!!
That is -6.4lbs this week.
I think the scale might be magic. Okay, I know it’s not magic but I...
10:40 am
I am trying really hard not to delete this month’s photo. I don’t really know why it’s bothering me so much more than the other ones… oh, vanity! I’ve decided that the thing to do is post other photos to make up for it. It will get lost in a sea of photos. If only I weren’t at work. No pics of me on this computer so I will just have to wait.
In other news I am...
2:20 pm
I wore shorts outside of my house yesterday. Just one errand. To buy wine. It did feel like people were looking at me. I wish I could say I didn’t care, but I did. However, being comfortable in my own body means being comfortable in my own body in shorts and I feel (almost!) summer heat the same as the next person so I tried to block it out and get through it anyway. Small victories.
12:20 pm
Two things about the photos:
1. I realized that only the very first one was ever taken on the 16th. I am terrible at sticking to plans. I will really try to be better because I don’t want this stupid photo to become a metaphor for my slacking in other aspects…
2. This month was really hard. I did not want to take that photo. I did not want to post it. I remember the first one and how...
4:30 pm
… and I realized the other day that I missed at 16th. June’s came and went and no embarrassing photo was posted! I will probably wait until I am back at home and post it tonight. No rush because a - no big change and b- I’m not sure my coworkers would appreciate me stripping right here and now.
Also, I feel like I should come up with a snazzy name for this monthly...
9:35 am
I got a new scale last night. Well, my mother did. It was half ‘thank you for looking after the dog this month’ (she leaves again Mon.) and part ‘we need to replace the useless 20 year old spring scale we have now’.
As we all know I have been apprehensive about focusing on numbers. And I think we can all see how well that served me (not at all). So my resolve has crumbled...
10:50 pm
OH MY GOD I JUST TAUGHT MYSELF HTMLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
I am so excited! I really still have no idea what is going on with this whole internet thing behind the curtain. But I did manage to use my impressive smarts and patience (I have very little of either) to add that “Ask Away” link you see underneath my description. I started almost two hours ago staring at a screen full of...
